Wednesday, October 28, 2009

simulation

I have created another person in my mind
Negative thoughts - Iam not okay, they are okay. Lack of confidence.
You have wonderful traits like loving, caring and understanding - do you need to create another person

He is everthing i want in my imagination
Negative thought - I am not okay, they are okay. I am not good enough. I do not like myself.
You can be that person in real life, grab all your monkeys and start being the real you. Use active illusion.

He is whatever i cannot or to shy to be in my life
Negative thought - Inferiority, you should have / you shoudn't have
Well it is time you realize you can, just chase away all the monkeys, start believing in yourself and you will find out you can be the real deal.

Everytime i feel inferior i become him, and dream of everthing i want to be
Negative thought- You cannot, you will make a fool of yourself, what will people think of you?
People look up to you, many envy your talents - feel good about yourself and walk tall, they are all going to love you.

He is good looking, a great singer, a good guitarist, agreat storywriter, a film director and the person everone wants to love
Neagtive thoughts - I am not okay they are okay. I cannot / i shoudnt
You are becoming a pretty good guitarist yourself and your singing is great at your range. You know you have capablity to write so why give your talents to someone else. Ask your alter ego to take a hike, send him away with the monkeys - you are taking care of matters now.

The real me is totally lacking in confidence, shy and dreaming and never achieving.
Negative thoughts - I cannot, fear of disapproval, lack of self belief
Grab you monkeys and watch yourself go you are going to kill them and they are going to ask for an encore

I wish the real real me could have all the traits of my alter ego
Neagtive thoughts - I cannot, Iam not okay - they are okay. I shoudn,t.
You have it just look deep into you, chase away the monkeys and you are it. You are a wonderful creation of god, blessed with a vibrant personality. You are god fearing and so you live the right way. Look around and tell me how many people are made like you. Feel proud and live it up.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

25th October Ist Simulation and Confrontation

The end of the month is nearing. I am starting to worry about the finances again.
Fear and insecurity
THe month hasn't ended, how sure are you that is going to be anything to worry about.

With no income coming in from Carmen and me, THe situation looks really hopeless.
I am never going to make it - i am doomed
Well are you going to forget about all the other beautiful things happening in your life just because of money?

This is going to be the third month since we started to leave on credit. I would be feeling a little better if there was some kind of income coming in - with expenses totalling about 4000 every month.
Fear, I cannot cope
You have survived three months and you have been reasonably happy, can it get any worse than this?

My back is against the wall, if i leave and take another job, i risk losing my clients.
Fear of losing
So work that much harder now for when the market flies you would be minting money.

Life has never been so hard for me. I feel fearful thinking what is going to happen to my son.
I am not okay they are okay, fear and insecurity.
Really think back the 7 years of hell that you went wondering you would be alive or dead. As for your son, give him more credit - he is a survivor

What if i cannot borrow money fron anyone, what am i going to do?As the days get closer to the 31st, it is going to be nerve wrecking
I cannot take it, i want to run away
Procrastination and by the way do who is running the show the monkey or you?

I am going to be worried and my sleep is going to be affected. I look around me and see everyone with some kind of income, i am really scared and toatlly lost not knowing what to do.
Fear, i am not okay-they are okay, panic.
You had a sleeping problem even in the happiest days of your life. Does their income scare you, why, you can make your own dreams, just be patient

Friday, October 16, 2009

Oct16th - Friday

Thank you for all the happy moments i had today

I had good business today and my client made money in the market.

I practiced my taught control and it helped on a few occasions during the day.

I walked confidently feeling on top of the world.

My motto is that other people's problems are not my problem, i can care and love but not attached.

The market looked vibrant and i feel there is a good chance it is going to run on Monday.

Manaish did a lot of revision thank god for Carmen's sacrificies.

We were happy as a family the three of us

We said our Rosary, god has been our guiding light

Thank you Lord for this wonderful FriDAY.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Oct 15 - Thursday

I am the best remisier in the world. I have the latest tips and the latest info on stocks. My clients depend on me to make money for themselves.

My comission even in a bad month is hefty. I do such agood job for my clients that they keep introducing new and rich clients to me.

My integrity is valued by all my clients. My company values my contribution and are ready to listen to any of my demands.

My comission is regularly among the top five remisiers in Kenanga. I have my own room where i operate from eqipped with a computer and TV screen.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Oct 14 - Wednesday

I am taking control of my life. I have become aware of my thoughts and i can actually watch the formation of my thought pattern.

THis gives me absolute power, i can achieve anything now by choosing the taughts i want. Wow am i going to continue doing this or what.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

The gateway has opened

Yes all the goodies are flowing through now.

I am a magnet only attracting positive vibes.

All the people who matter in the stockmarket are talking to me

They want to share every piece of good news with me

I make things happen in the market. My clients know my worth and they listen to whatever i say

I make money easily from whatever share i choose to buy

I am going to get really big as soon as i start out on my own

Everyone is my friend

I have no enemies

I am only concerned with my own life

Other people do not matter to me

I only fear the judgement of god

With god on my side i am the best human being on this planet

Saturday, October 10, 2009

October 11 2009 - Me Myself

I am the resident of this blog

Mr Super confident that's me

I am MR Money Magnet. The heavens have opened up for me to pursue wealth and riches

Blessed by god with a caring and loving nature

I love me and i respect me